Being Physical 2

Brothers In Arms, Dire Straits, softcore, thats what my uncle used to call these songs as. He mentioned that my tastes were hardrock ones. Metal was just out of the topic then. Yeap. Am kinda like pissed up with the hard tracks, especially for the gym. Another soft stuff - Louis armstrong, you know, what a wonderful world.

Never had thought that I will come back to the ramp in 09 gathering. & fuck that motherfucking bitch tayde. fuck the whole family infront of streetdogs. Fuck it off.

It was 15th january, when diptanu approached me - sir u have to walk in barechest. As baghel would comment me as - u can never surely say no to a body show. Baghel was partly right. On 15th jan  my waist line inched 33, with infra mammary fat hanging giving it a gynaecomastic look. The side belly fat was also too much, stuff which mohit made fun off. I couldn't have gone back on stage with all that. The last bare chest, 07 Lycans show, I had enough fat on me then, I literally hated that look. Part of the reasons why I walked into that round, yet so unprepared. One part reason - suicidal. So tattoo came in, with long hairs & the base ball stump, which I might have lost now, it was just for show only, truly. All the extra stuffs were to divert the attention away from my body cut. 06 bare chest body - too thin, too less fat, too less bulk. One reason, Nupur shouting - give the Ghajini look, I needed abs. Knew that low fat & high bulk wasn't everyone's game. But guys did it. Sunny & Supratim. With their 16-17 inches biceps. & Supratim's abs. Sunny hit back with his definitions & cuts. So it was possible. But wasn't much possible in 1 month.

So diptanu said the show was on 7th feb & I was in gym on 15th jan. Surely I wasn't in much mood of spending after the manali trip. With no other way out, I took upto Muscletech. Muscletech, a stuff created by God himself as if. 2 days, my trapezius were soaring. I started running on the 4th day. The gathering got postponed to 15th feb. Now I had whole 1 month. It was 6 days I started running, that my abs started showing up, my waist was down to 30 in just 10 days. Oh hell yeah, I had experienced such a catastrophe earlier too, december days of 2010. Just that it was a different story. So, this time, my abs line were showing up really high. I was happy. What I didn't realize was my biceps were hitting below 15. I wouldn't have surely gone on stage with a biceps below 15. People always knew me for my bulk. Baghel, Mahajan sir, Pavan sir were different. Me, Supratim were the other sides of the card. The ectomorph endomorph story of Arnold.

So my transformation this time, was partly inspired from sunny supratim's 08 act, sunny's tips. They worked whole 1 year. I had just 1 month. I just mixed up with British nutrition, GDYNS, Muscletech. Bit like 4000 rs. spent after supplements in one month. & I became a rabbit literally, reffered by my neighbor Vinamra. Carrots. Bananas. Carrotts. Supplements. Dal. Water. Bananas. Carrots. Supplements. & Muscletech gave sleepless nights. Reminded me of Supratim's statement - 3-4 hrs of sleep will be enough. Rejoined was the mood instability.

Come 15th feb. Whole day dehydrated. Not a drop of water, not a pinch of food. What showed up was a evening show wasted by rains. Frustation followed by chicken tandoori. The last 2 scoops of BN were perhaps left by God for me. "Just one more day" told myself & hit the gym from morning 6;30 am next day morning, injuring myself at 9 am, to return back to bed till, 12;30 pm, when the strains disappeared. Fit to hit the gym followed by the ramp. 2nd day without water. The abs showed up like anything. The bulk did drop a lot. But enough for a double biceps pose. The chest was the best I ever made. A combination of my lower chest and upper chest. The cleavage line didn't show up much. & my beauty - my lovely trapezius. The shoulders were shining like a knight's armour. Triceps were ready for a posedown, ready as always, as if by birth only. he he he. I was ready.

Something different this time. 1st time I went down that ramp. Just a jeans & woodland. I ran like anything. Amateur.
2nd time. Triple H act. Water spilling act.
3rd time. Tattoos. Hairs. Baseball stick.
4th time - Water dipping from top to bottom. Pants wet. Shoes wet. The oil just disappeared.
Everytime I remember the girls back stage oggling at us oiling & pumping. That used to be the days with Mahajan sir. I still remember Mahajan sir's words - "forget who does what on the stage. when a bare chest comes on stage, the public goes mad. The cheerings are the best for the bare chests only."
This time back stage, one bucket splashed over me & the '10 girls went awe. ha ha ha. Loved these reactions.

One thing to end with. If anything ever accompanied me in my all times, that was gym. Everything to prove. Everything to build up. Everything to let the world know. Everything to show. Strong like hell.
I will hit again. Stronger than everytime.

The Song Remained The Same

One eventide my wishers ran to me to comprise an ode,

I said mate, going into lines ain't ever that elementary.

But we wish one for the rag, one for the broadside;

I gave them absolution without being assured of any copy.

A rhythmical expressive literary piece, epic surely;

The reciter will leer for rhymes, or no poesy certainly.

Yeah, since cradle, did write verses of sundry sense,

Though brought forth few years back of embodied veins.

And now, I can't harmonize anything of variant sort,

For every tune would strike the very same old chord.

The motif may change its pitch but song remains the same,

Every song would sound the very half daffy and half sane.

It craves for adroitness to coin songs with colored senses,

as is needed skill and practice to live life sans contriteness.

Some regrets are also sweet, eventhough all got withered,

A man knows part life breathed and part smiles feathered.

Ain't no Avon bard, Tennyson or Milton sits here,

Here is seated me, and one of my kind.

They rhymed words and verses like Arcadia rained,

I just need the constant hum of my trifled mind.

She bestowed the strings of right note into the amateur's arms,

And now the virtuoso kept fiddling tunes of deserter charms.

Its been trey reigns,

That the winters felt harsher than the frosts,

As the springs felt drier than the riots,

And the summertides felt warmer than the first muggy seasons,

while sleeping in the daylights haunted more than the darker ones.

Unless you were acquainted with John 8:32, the truth shall make you free,

Alpha Omegas and Lucifers, destinies and rites were all for lifeless bees.

Or this core was never versed with constraints of yearnings,

Fringes came with blessing in this mortal mold

Or the heart wished to be Lord by the cues of these understandings.

Humble

Long ago, stood a time,

when the stars lay humble, twinkling across the night sky.

blinking across the silent innocence,

laid humble & blinked as the breeze went by.

Dear we were versed of cipher,

fascinated to ponder into the oblivion so yonder.

Nihility of lifing, and the entity of voidness,

anything ever endured then, was our skill at specter.

And then, every year, came this festival of lights

and we smiled at the flare of every single firework across the sky.

As the sky still laid humble, calm & serene.

with the same innocence still spanned across & underneath thereby.

Immaculateness it still clinged to.

But some of it strayed underneath it along with the time.

The sky still laid humble as ever,

peered at every execrable juncture cooking across the grime.

For some part of it, of the impeccability, 

was atoned for part of the ignorance.

For the inculpability too came with yearnings,

for cupidity too savored the equal essence. 

Some predilections were never acquainted with bitter ends,

some simply never wanted to accede the lines & verges.

They just kept yearning,

For a mortal soul was never meant to apprehend any snag of urges.

And they kept tossing wishes,

at the blink of every falling star.

The sky, still humble, as ever,

smiled at every innocence wishing this far.

The heart was still a child,

blessed as much with innocence, that much with ignorance.

It yet played merrily with its verve of chimeras, 

and loved to smile at every grace.

As for now, the heart was filling out,

as the vagueness calmly bleach away.

But the innocent skies, still humble,

wide open, twinkling smiling they lay.

Rhyming bits

Pay me grandeur,

for your soul isn't as beautiful as mine.

Lighten my heart,

or else it sways with imbecilic rhymes.

Its onerous to be in fine feathers,

when all thou yearn for is to ring the blues.

She used to call it the yammerings,

little was she versed with the taken down fortunes.

They savor in the scads of worth,

they can't ken on rueful bleak endearments.

All they can do is to feel vibes,

of how vile can we be in dumps so despondent.

Yet I was a sacrosanct feller,

to have gleaned on her forbearing cold shoulders.

Yet of many unforgiven phrases for her,

She will always be there in my red letters.

She did watch over, thought so I,

little did I catch the drifts of incog notions.

Little does the gusto see daylights,

when rapted in the zealotry of affections.

They came like some foredestined bustle,

the wintertide waited lay for the Yule.

Then wailed in the lorn descant,

I did pile on the stance over an alighting fuel.

That lullaby was up to snuff,

It still hums the waves of grizzled impeccability

As I try to contrive a modish canticle,

they all echo the dead ringer eventually.

Thou caught the drift of the yearning,

that I latched on to you nonetheless.

Thou as well wielded alike,

Ached for some other nevertheless.

Yes, we are well wishers still,

would wring to scythe the any of it,

for ya still nested in my core,

all hankered for to lay docked in on with.

Very much taken in,

ya bought into all thy soul pined for.

Zilch was me, just some memo,

dishing up some warm fuzzy honor.

Still fazed on the songs and dances,

yet a lot alibi on to knock off precluded wear and tear.

Thy was a slice very much elite,

unreal enough for me to push the pencil over and over.