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What to write now. Its 2 am. 8 june 2011. Fear of practicals hanging over my head. Am not sure if I will be able to pass or not. An honest confession, when I wasn't able to cope up with the syllabus, be it medicine, or surgery or gyne obs or paeds, I was reflecting back on the times I wasted in january & february, right after the things took a negative swing after the end december incident. Well, even after the barechest round in early march, I thought I would be able to give my 100% effort to leftover time, but I wasn't. I was still infected. Rest of the stuffs, late may, I got a notice, early june, after my obs exam, I got the treat, but the final treat is still left. Lord knows how I will survive that one.
Whatever.
She said - "Arnab, time heals. So give it time. You will be alright."
& what did Po say? He said - "Scars heal". & Shen replied - "No they don't. Wounds heal".
I don't care what the fuck heals. I am better with it being the same as it was. I want it to be just the that way only. It feels good. Really. But it would definitely feel better if I pass this bloody exam. It will be a miracle if I give a clean chit.
That's what I told Akash today, sitting on the fly over - "Whatever you wanna do, do it before your final year. Don't let anything go wrong in final year. Better settle the scores beforehand only. Or you will land up in a position like me".
Again, I will say 'whatever'. God didn't care till now. I won't be surprised if He doesn't care in future. Why blame God always? Bad habit.
& as for the truth, we don't learn to move on. We learn to live with it. That was the one piece of speech from the old Ghosh sir - "the quality of man which differentiates him from the rest of the animals is, doesn't matter where you throw him, no matter how worse circumstances are, he always learns to survive in it & stand up again". That was when I went to him after I got reffered.
& finally I decided to buy some Harley Davidson stuff, & get a hair transplant, & some permanent tattoos. Times will be harsh from now on. Things have surely changed alot since 25th december 2010. & as for the guitar. I was determined to learn some songs, which I was unable to do last night. Both Nothing Else Matters & Patience were tough to be taken down on my guitar. I will give it time later.
& yeah... some corrections. If you happen to read my blog, & if you read the article Being Physical, do observe that I wrote in it of doing the biceps triceps workouts on the same day. Now that's incorrect. We never exercise the counteracting muscle on the same day. As for me, biceps & shoulders go together, & triceps & back go on same day.
& for my last article - Is This The End, I left it with loads of question marks to end with, the truth is, I myself am not sure what exactly was I referring to end. Surely that article appears alot insane. But no offence in it. Madness is life. Life without madness is lifeless. I have referred to some songs in the article. Just add one more to it - Black of Pearl Jam.
So smile :)
Surely a man who learns to smile in adversity, knows a mature way to deal with life.
Sign in. Then redirecting. Then the dashboard opens. & a new post.
What to write now. Its 2 am. 8 june 2011. Fear of practicals hanging over my head. Am not sure if I will be able to pass or not. An honest confession, when I wasn't able to cope up with the syllabus, be it medicine, or surgery or gyne obs or paeds, I was reflecting back on the times I wasted in january & february, right after the things took a negative swing after the end december incident. Well, even after the barechest round in early march, I thought I would be able to give my 100% effort to leftover time, but I wasn't. I was still infected. Rest of the stuffs, late may, I got a notice, early june, after my obs exam, I got the treat, but the final treat is still left. Lord knows how I will survive that one.
Whatever.
She said - "Arnab, time heals. So give it time. You will be alright."
& what did Po say? He said - "Scars heal". & Shen replied - "No they don't. Wounds heal".
I don't care what the fuck heals. I am better with it being the same as it was. I want it to be just the that way only. It feels good. Really. But it would definitely feel better if I pass this bloody exam. It will be a miracle if I give a clean chit.
That's what I told Akash today, sitting on the fly over - "Whatever you wanna do, do it before your final year. Don't let anything go wrong in final year. Better settle the scores beforehand only. Or you will land up in a position like me".
Again, I will say 'whatever'. God didn't care till now. I won't be surprised if He doesn't care in future. Why blame God always? Bad habit.
& as for the truth, we don't learn to move on. We learn to live with it. That was the one piece of speech from the old Ghosh sir - "the quality of man which differentiates him from the rest of the animals is, doesn't matter where you throw him, no matter how worse circumstances are, he always learns to survive in it & stand up again". That was when I went to him after I got reffered.
& finally I decided to buy some Harley Davidson stuff, & get a hair transplant, & some permanent tattoos. Times will be harsh from now on. Things have surely changed alot since 25th december 2010. & as for the guitar. I was determined to learn some songs, which I was unable to do last night. Both Nothing Else Matters & Patience were tough to be taken down on my guitar. I will give it time later.
& yeah... some corrections. If you happen to read my blog, & if you read the article Being Physical, do observe that I wrote in it of doing the biceps triceps workouts on the same day. Now that's incorrect. We never exercise the counteracting muscle on the same day. As for me, biceps & shoulders go together, & triceps & back go on same day.
& for my last article - Is This The End, I left it with loads of question marks to end with, the truth is, I myself am not sure what exactly was I referring to end. Surely that article appears alot insane. But no offence in it. Madness is life. Life without madness is lifeless. I have referred to some songs in the article. Just add one more to it - Black of Pearl Jam.
So smile :)
Surely a man who learns to smile in adversity, knows a mature way to deal with life.
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