This was a really a.... I don't know the perfect word to describe this summer. Probably coz I never before did internship in a summer season. Just kidding. 48 degrees wasn't a joke. & in that heat, handle the motherfucker pgs of mgims. Better handle a street dog than working with these non-sense staff of this college.
Now if ever again my mom tells me - 'look, a surgeon. Look, a pediatrician', am gonna fire back - 'enough seen such idiots. Know how junky they are.'
Medicine posting was really a hell of a mess. 'Pata hai peechle 3 din se mujhe sone ko nahi mila.'
I would reply back at such utterly crapshit pgs - 'maine kahaa tha md medicine karne ko???'
Rather I fought with not only pgs, even those low-shitty nurses & even patients. So much that if now I ever happen to speak nicely to any patient anywhere, I feel surprised at myself - 'how can I be so benevolent!'
Opthal, perhaps the best posting till now for me. So sweet of u, the pgs of opthalmology. & that obnoxious shukla & shukli. Even hell would feel ashamed at these two creatures.
I want to go to Kolkata. Its been a long time. The arrival of rain in Kolkata is very beautiful. The view of the Howrah bridge underneath the dark monsoon clouds in evening from the AJC flyover, across the maidan, that was really beautiful. Pardon the humidity of Kolkata though. No. No mercy for that.
Hmmm. KKR won. SRK's team finally did it. Remember those old days when KKR would feed continuously at the bottom of the tables. 5 years it took to make a rotten team, an IPL champ. It was really demoniac to face the crowd of tv room this year. Didn't see Pattinson bowl though. I would have preferred him over De Lange. & the mystery man - Narine, surely no words for him.
Heard that our stipend increased. Wanna buy mobile. Wanna save money for bike. So many wishes with such a small amount. Probably the last time of sitting and going on with the flow. After internship, bad times are coming surely. What am I gonna do, will see. Will try to endure it all.
Akash gone Tirupati. Have taken everything from him. Am riding his bike, staying in his room, using his laptop. This summer not only disabled me from staying in my room, but also burnt down my laptop.
Planning a bike trip to Jabalpur. Let it rain first. Am biking a lot nowadays. & am truly loving it. Still not perfected absolutely with slow biking. Highway biking is pleasure though.
What else to update. Don't feel much of updating nowadays.
Fired her from my fb friend list. Took almost one whole sleepless night to do that.
"and it was better if you resisted just a little more & took it all to your grave."
What kind of line is that! Scoffing scornful sneer.
Just keep speaking to myself - 'whatever I did was right. Maybe whatever happened was wrong. Maybe I suffered. Maybe I could have neither rendered more nor endured more. But whatever. Maybe I just got left out to be just myself. Some say I was wrong, some say I was mad, some say I was stupid. How long will you lead a life full of sensibilities & virtues. Maybe it all had to come this way only. In the end, that's what defines you. Me. I know I was completely in my senses throughout the time. Just didn't have enough strength to stand up strong against that very frenetic wind.'
Whispering the wise lines of Axl Rose - "Cause nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain."
Will wish for the studies to go rightly now. I get totally massacred when I try to figure out what to study & what not. Cause its simply too much. Am just hanging across the loose end of the thread.
Now if ever again my mom tells me - 'look, a surgeon. Look, a pediatrician', am gonna fire back - 'enough seen such idiots. Know how junky they are.'
Medicine posting was really a hell of a mess. 'Pata hai peechle 3 din se mujhe sone ko nahi mila.'
I would reply back at such utterly crapshit pgs - 'maine kahaa tha md medicine karne ko???'
Rather I fought with not only pgs, even those low-shitty nurses & even patients. So much that if now I ever happen to speak nicely to any patient anywhere, I feel surprised at myself - 'how can I be so benevolent!'
Opthal, perhaps the best posting till now for me. So sweet of u, the pgs of opthalmology. & that obnoxious shukla & shukli. Even hell would feel ashamed at these two creatures.
I want to go to Kolkata. Its been a long time. The arrival of rain in Kolkata is very beautiful. The view of the Howrah bridge underneath the dark monsoon clouds in evening from the AJC flyover, across the maidan, that was really beautiful. Pardon the humidity of Kolkata though. No. No mercy for that.
Hmmm. KKR won. SRK's team finally did it. Remember those old days when KKR would feed continuously at the bottom of the tables. 5 years it took to make a rotten team, an IPL champ. It was really demoniac to face the crowd of tv room this year. Didn't see Pattinson bowl though. I would have preferred him over De Lange. & the mystery man - Narine, surely no words for him.
Heard that our stipend increased. Wanna buy mobile. Wanna save money for bike. So many wishes with such a small amount. Probably the last time of sitting and going on with the flow. After internship, bad times are coming surely. What am I gonna do, will see. Will try to endure it all.
Akash gone Tirupati. Have taken everything from him. Am riding his bike, staying in his room, using his laptop. This summer not only disabled me from staying in my room, but also burnt down my laptop.
Planning a bike trip to Jabalpur. Let it rain first. Am biking a lot nowadays. & am truly loving it. Still not perfected absolutely with slow biking. Highway biking is pleasure though.
What else to update. Don't feel much of updating nowadays.
Fired her from my fb friend list. Took almost one whole sleepless night to do that.
"and it was better if you resisted just a little more & took it all to your grave."
What kind of line is that! Scoffing scornful sneer.
Just keep speaking to myself - 'whatever I did was right. Maybe whatever happened was wrong. Maybe I suffered. Maybe I could have neither rendered more nor endured more. But whatever. Maybe I just got left out to be just myself. Some say I was wrong, some say I was mad, some say I was stupid. How long will you lead a life full of sensibilities & virtues. Maybe it all had to come this way only. In the end, that's what defines you. Me. I know I was completely in my senses throughout the time. Just didn't have enough strength to stand up strong against that very frenetic wind.'
Whispering the wise lines of Axl Rose - "Cause nothing lasts forever, even cold November rain."
Will wish for the studies to go rightly now. I get totally massacred when I try to figure out what to study & what not. Cause its simply too much. Am just hanging across the loose end of the thread.
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